Another sono...

We found out the other day that we need to go to Topeka to get another sonogram.  There was something abnormal about the baby's lungs, heart, or liver.  We don't know anything else.  Everything could be just fine, but the doctors want to check things closer.  The appointment is October 12th.  So that's where we're at. 

Receiving the call the other day brought an instant turn of events.  We found out we are having a girl, started getting excited and our mind set on more pink, and then BAM.  But there's nothing I can do, and there is no need to worry.  And there is even a REALLY good thing about all of this uncertainty.  I know the ONE who IS certain.  I don't have to hold everything together, HE is.  I don't have to think about what is in the future, HE knows.  I can REST in knowing that my Savior and Lord cares for me and will hold me up through anything that I might have to face.  He has felt the pain of grief, much more than I can imagine, and HE knows. 

I know that many people have been praying for us the last couple of days, and I am so thankful.  I truly have a peace in my heart and I have found joy in this trial.  I can cling to the promises I find in scripture when the enemy's thoughts start to creep in.  It is a battle I fight many times a day and I am choosing to focus on the things that are certain rather than the things that are uncertain. Philippians 4:4-9 has helped me the last couple days. It says, "Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you."
(Philippians 4:4-9 ESV)

I am learning about that peace of God, which surpasses all understanding.  It truly does guard your hearts and minds.  I know who is forming this baby inside my womb right now, and He is making her perfect.  Maybe not perfect according to the worlds standards, but I can't think of many times the world's standards measure up to God's.  

So we will go down this unknown journey guided by Father.  We hope for the best, which could be the baby is absolutely healthy and the 1st sonogram wasn't clear.  Or we will glady share in the sufferings of Christ as we take on whatever lies ahead.  One thing is clear.  God WILL be glorified, and He WILL make His name great.  I know my faith will grow by being a part of this. That is exciting to me!