Never Be Afraid to Trust and Unknown Future to a Known God. - Corrie Ten Boom

In 2 weeks we have the ultrasound to find out what, if anything, is wrong with the baby.  Yesterday was a wonderful day of fellowship with my family in Christ.  They are the best.  I am being blanketed by Christ's love right now, and there is much peace. I felt like the Sunday School lesson and the sermon were especially for me.  And then we had a sweet time of prayer in the evening.  God is helping me go through this trial.  I am not alone.  He feels so close.  I even have an excitement in seeing what God will do through this. 

I think I am doing pretty well with thinking about the things I know are true, and turning my thoughts back to those truths when the waves of fear, insecurity, and uncertainty creep in.  But I have found that it is much easier to think those thoughts than it is to talk about or express what I am thinking.  I don't think it is possible for me to pray aloud or talk about it without crying. 

So for the next 2 weeks I will wait.  I will trust in the Lord, and I will let Him strengthen me.  I am ready for whatever path He wants to take me down.  I hope and pray for the best.  That there was a mistake and there is nothing wrong with my sweet little girl.  She is letting me know she is here now.  She kicks and moves around. That is so special to me since I was told I wouldn't feel her much because the placenta in on the front of my uterus.  But as Addy told me, "Mama, even if the baby dies that's still good cause she'll be in heaven."  So there is no bad thing that can happen.  Even if she is very sick, has a disability, or dies, my faith will increase. This is a very short time of trial that is good for me.  Where I can say with Paul, "For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10